How does a 5’2 middle-aged and somewhat retired athlete land herself on a team with three elite male cyclists for Nevada’s premier ultra-endurance cycling race? Well, it has a lot to do with luck (in my case, it’s an occupational hazard when you date the owner of the bike shop who sponsors the event)— but more than that, my journey coincides with a personal journey that started over a year ago.Read More
So, here’s the thing: I’m 37. And maybe that doesn’t sound like a big admission, but hot damn, when did that happen? A second ago, I was just barely 30, and so it was OK that I wasn’t widely published, and it was OK that I was still finding my voice, and it was OK that I didn’t own a house or a car or have children or was married (you get the idea.) And then one day you (or I) woke up and realized: I’m really an adult now, and all of this stuff I haven’t done is starting to be embarrassing.Read More
We can etch our stories in stone, but how much of those stories convey who we really are? On a local hike to see local petroglyphs, the question becomes: what are the traces we leave behind? And what, in those traces, tell others who we ACTUALLY are?Read More
It was just a six-mile run in the Sierra. But after climbing to 8,333 feet and meeting the snow, I realized it was much, much more.Read More
It’s amazing what you start to hear when you listen to yourself. Turn off social media, the music— the rain, your heartbeat and the world tell you all you need to know.Read More
The older I get, the more I’m convinced that time is cyclical: the seasons change, but they come back around again; the earth doesn’t go on a point-to-point journey, but instead runs its laps around the sun. And then there’s me: it was quiet and cold this morning (and a faint mist of rain hanging around the mountains) so I laced up my running shoes and took myself on a little adventure.Read More
For those of you who know me, you know something’s up. The race season is underway, and I’m not racing. Rumor (probably) has it that I’m sick or something, but I’m not. The most honest answer I can give you is that I woke up one day and everything I thought I knew about myself had changed. No— that’s not exactly true.Read More
It’s never easy when you lose a pet— especially when it’s only due to the nature of hunger and life.Read More
The smell of oil paints hit you the second you walked into the (oddly) white walled space, with the chaos of easels, paint cans, splatters across the floor and other art paraphernalia was strewn about, well, artfully—messy, but with attitude. The professor—the man mostly responsible for my love of higher education—delivered a brief lecture on the nature of art, creativity and the final exam before leaving for a cup of coffee. We saw him (maybe?) three times that semester—and yet, he ignited this odd spark in me: how do you “make it new”—break the rules—while adhering to the excellence of techniques that have stood the test of time?Read More
The open desert, the raw landscape, the elements, the wind: there is something about the Silver State 508 that brings me back to my keyboard long after I’ve crossed the finish line, and I’m not quite sure I know what it is. I’ve raced this year more than I have ever raced before (a somewhat funny statement, given that the handful of crits, road races and TTs I’ve done is a relatively small number when compared to the “real” cyclists out there)— but I think it has to do with the line between the inner and the outer people we are. It’s an odd thing to say that those two versions of ourselves meet in the saddle of a bike (because, for me, that’s where my inner self tends to take the main stage) , but for an event like the Silver State 508 (at least, the version of it that involves a team and/or crew) this is the 48 hours when the inner and outer versions of ourselves collide upon the backdrop of the stark and terrifyingly beautiful Great Basin.
But, the race this year came at a time when I’m starting to feel the passage of the years in a different way than before: It is not just another season with another handful of races, but rather a time in my life when certain facts about who I am and what I stand for are inarguable. This realization came to light at another local relay race this year, the Reno-Tahoe Odyssey (a 178-mile race). It was the morning of the race’s finish and half of our team who had completed their legs of the course gathered for breakfast at a local cafe. One man, making conversation, asked me: “So, you’ve never been married?” And confirming that made me realize that I am a certain kind of a woman who, knowingly or not, has refused a more conventional way of life that, these days, fills my insta and facebook feeds.
The smoke that covered the Great Basin for nearly all of August added to the uncertainty with which I faced the end of this cycling season: have I really chosen one way of life over another? And, if so, is that necessarily a bad thing? The orange light and fireside smell lingered as my cycling miles dwindled to nearly nothing. What is a cyclist without a bike? I began to look into the past for clues as to what brought me here, and where I might be going.
So, enter the Silver State 508: it’s my fourth year racing in the event (fifth year participating— I crewed for a team the first year the event was moved to Nevada) but it is the only year when I’ve been keenly aware of home and the roads upon which I traveled, some of which I have intentionally forgotten. The event came at the precise moment when the smoke from the fires cleared, and the warmth of summer is replaced by a sharpness in the air that touched the tips of cottonwood leaves yellow. It is one thing sport has taught me, no matter what discipline in which I compete: time matters.
And, it is the time in my life when I’m reading writers from the American West, and Terry Tempest Williams, who tells me: “It’s strange to feel change coming. It’s easy to ignore. An underlying restlessness seems to accompany it like birds flocking before a storm. We go about our business with the usual alacrity, while in the pit of our stomach there is a sense of something tenuous. These moments of peripheral perceptions are short, sharp flashes of insight we tend to discount like seeing the movement of an animal from the corner of our eye. We turn and there is nothing there. They are the strong and subtle impressions we allow to slip away.”
The flicker of migrating birds or an antelope crouching in the alfalfa fields in the Reese River Valley. Rabbits, deer: flickering on the shoulder. These are the glimpses a cyclist sees.
7:00 am: Reno, Nevada.
The starting line is colder than I remember. This, I know, isn’t true because in previous years I wore a green Patagonia puffy jacket that, this year, has mysteriously gone missing. It was the jacket I bought when I first moved back to Nevada after graduate school, when I couldn’t afford much and wanted—more than a job or any other tangible thing— to cross the finish line of an Ironman to prove to myself that I was strong enough to endure most anything. Finish I did; and funny, now, how that accomplishment translates to the starting line of every race.
Team vans were not permitted to drive up Geiger Grade to accompany the riders, so we took a different route through Carson City and up highway 50 where Six Mile Canyon road meets the loneliest highway. Tillio was the ninth rider to complete the stage, including the solo riders (who had a two-hour head start.) He had a total ride time of 2 hours, 50 minutes— and a demeanor that was all business. So much so, that at the exchange point, he sprinted past our second rider, Rich, until our screams made him come to a screeching, rubber-burning halt, so that he could hand off the GPS tracker to the next rider.
9:50 am: Silver Springs.
The cold of the morning faded into a pleasant 70-degrees with a light tailwind that would be precipitous on the following day. Yet, for now, the morning was just about as perfect as a morning can be on a September in Nevada. Tillio’s other half, Renee, arrived at the start line before all of us, cheered on Tillio and followed our support vehicle to the first exchange point to support us. “This is so cool!” she said, again and again, and texted us pictures that she had taken of Tillio riding. The first leg **might** have convinced her to participate in next year’s event—or, at least, we hope so. Maybe we can get more than one or two local teams in this incredible race.
Rich, our second rider (who would cover the 31 mile Stage 2), left in a blue flash, and our Crew Chief, Linda (who also crewed for my team last year) had quite a time herding us all back into the vehicle so that we didn’t let Rich finish without us. There was just too much to talk about: the newness of racing not only this distance, but this span of time; the challenge of balancing the demands of the body (“I had to pee for that whole stage,” Tillio admitted afterward) with the demand of not sacrificing the team’s goal of a good finish.
The second leg of the Silver State is relatively flat and is known as something of a TT. Many riders bust out the beautiful and streamlined (and UCI illegal) time trial bikes in order to get the best time. Rich, who is something of a local legend and TT animal, usually eats this stage alive. And, once we got on the road again with Tillio in the back of the subburban, Monica in the middle seat, and me riding shotgun, we sped over a slight rise and old Lake Lahontan appeared on our right. That was about when we caught Rich— a good ten miles in, and I was glad we had left when we did.
Low in the aerobars, and head down, Rich would later say that he was trying to maintain 300+ watts for the entire stage. This is really too bad because, about halfway through the stage (well before the Fallon city limits) Monica and I made good a pre-race promise that we would moon him. This, despite the fact that nudity is technically illegal in the 508 (although we weren’t really naked. Or, most of us wasn’t naked.)
Rich was so focused on his watts, however, he missed the rare astrological phenomenon of a double moon rising on a mid-morning September day.
The second our maroon-colored suburban pulled into dirt parking lot next to the Harmon Station (the last gas station before the vast expanse of salt flats to the East of Fallon), we received two SOS requests: one, from a race official who informed us that a solo rider’s Bianci bike had a serious issue with the seat post and another, from a two-woman team, whose back tire kept going flat.
I hadn’t been responsible for packing the race vehicle: I had packed the stuff that would be packed into the car, but I left the practical, engineering of forcing what amounted to ten pounds of shit in a five pound bag (to speak metaphorically) to someone like Rich who is better that kind of thing than I am. So, short story long, I had no idea (really) where anything was except for my race gear, which I packed into a single bag and placed behind the driver’s seat.
I quickly dashed into the convenience store (knowing I had very little time to waste) to manage my hydration (a quick pit stop followed by the purchase of a large bottle of water.) The leading team, Coconut Crab, was already gone.
11:12 am: Fallon.
I see the flash of a blue jersey and the motionless upper body in a TT position before anyone else does. Monica, our third rider, was doing something by our vehicle with Tillio, Renee and our Crew Chief, Linda. I shouted to her that it was time to ride, and the exchange happened quickly: Monica, in her red Audi jersey, was riding out into the salt flats for a 112 mile stage, and Rich was back with us (sweaty) and ready to repair a leaking tire and to part-crew for a solo rider whose team was in search of a missing part back in Reno.
The salt flats to the East of Fallon are desolately beautiful. Or, desolately scary, depending on how you look at them. Tilio, at some point during this section of the race, commented that: “I wouldn’t ever have actually looked at this part of the state. Usually, you drive through here on your way to somewhere at, like, 70mph. I’ve never actually looked at this as a place before.”
This is highway 50 writ large: human population: 0; sky: at least 70% of your view at any given point. The salt flats reflect the light, and are so white they can almost look like snow.
We stop to take pictures of Monica riding by Sand Mountain (a famous local landmark), and over Sand Pass, an old Mig Aircraft buzzes the old highway in the Dixie Valley, which also serves as the Navy’s practice bombing range. The highway, here, parallels the old Pony Express Route, and I make sure to capture evidence of that— for what reason, I’m not sure; maybe the juxtaposition of past and present, a reminder of how a place, even as desolate as this, can change.
Approximately 1:30 pm: Middlegate.
About three weeks before the Silver State 508, I had to replace my phone, which means I lost a lot of my contacts that had been saved on the older one. So, these days I receive a lot of text messages from phone numbers and I have no idea who is trying to communicate with me. In some ways, this has been an interesting experiment in “how well do we know our relationships with other people?” and at times, I’ve been pleasantly surprised that a particular turn of phrase alerts to the identity of the ten-digit number. Other times, the technological screen obscures the sender’s identity, and I really have no idea who is texting me about a book on raising chickens.
This was what happened during the third stage of the race. I received a text: “Hey Team Icky! What the ETA to Middlegate?” Someone in our Great Basin Bicycles community was following our progress, and, I would soon learn, was hoping to meet us at the iconic Middlegate (an old ranch that is now a bar/restaurant and (sort of) hotel. Thanks again to Rich, I learned that this was Moira Shea, a cyclist from Reno who has ridden on the CompuTrainers in our shop during the winter with not only Rich and I, but also Tillio and Monica.
Middlegate isn’t exactly the place you ever expect an unexpected encounter, but in 508 miles, anything can happen.
Approximately 1:49 pm: Carroll Summit climb.
The gentle tailwind changes to an all-around wind, swirling through the mouth of the canyon that once hosted Nevada’s largest alfalfa farm. That changed in the 1950s when an earthquake altered the water table and all but one farm dried up, and the region drained of water and population.
Monica has been on the road for nearly four hours, and we still haven’t refilled her bottles. I take her advice to be a little more forceful as she passes us, heading into the Carroll Summit climb: “Drink that water, bitch!” (Earlier that day, she told us that we should end every sentence with the word “bitch” so I was only following instructions. The other team, for solo female rider, Mighty Mouse, really looked at me as if I was crazy when I yelled that to Monica.)
Monica, however, laughed.
Approximately 2:46 pm: Carroll Summit climb.
The wind is everywhere. Monica, at some point, says “I feel like I am going so slow.” She is not, but that’s the trouble with this section: it doesn’t look uphill, but it is. The wind certainly isn’t helping. Rich passes off water, Coke and electrolytes. We leap frog her up to the top.
Monica, who is strong and brave, continues climbing.
Approximately 3:38 pm: Carrol Summit, Smith Creek side.
We let Monica gain speed down the opposite side of Carroll Summit. Although she was cramping, she seemed to enjoy the beautiful canyon lined with aspen trees that flickered in the wind like sequins.
Before the mouth of the canyon opens to Smith Creek, we pull off the side of the road, and re-organize the race vehicle. Tilio is an expert at this, and I let him re-arrange and organize. Geroge Vargas, ten-time Silver State 508 race finisher and former Race Director and always-legend Chris Kostman (in his blue Saturn) join us on the shoulder of the road, and we collectively toast with sparkling water, exchanging memories of this route, upon which all of us have trod (and ridden) many times.
We encounter a traffic jam on the Loneliest Highway in America.
After we leave Chris Kostman and George Vargas, we go in search of Monica. Around a blind corner, we encounter Monica, another rider and another crew/vehicle. People are spread out all across the road. Rich fears the worst (that a rider had crashed and had been injured) and hops out of our support suburban before we had even stopped.
We see a herd of longhorn cattle blocking the road. The other team informs us that the cattle are blocking the road and every time they try to herd them away, the bulls charge. Rich takes charge (literally) and starts running toward the herd. I, somewhat concerned, tell our crew to start driving because Rich really doesn’t need any more holes in him. Linda, our Crew Chief and driver, honks the horn and, eventually, Rich successfully herds the cattle of the road so the race can continue.
(PS: Check out the facebook page for Great Basin Bicycles HERE for video coverage of the biggest traffic jam on America’s Loneliest Highway.)
5:48 pm: Austin.
To say I’ve had my doubts about myself as an athlete this year would be putting it mildly; It’s hard to say what exactly happened, or if it was just a bunch of crap all at once and the sheer volume of it broke me down. This year, I started racing in the classic cycling scene, a.k.a.: the USAC-sanctioned road events which means, for the most part, [boring] crtieriums held in flat business parks with big, wide roads and one or two horrendous road races with basically zero support. I fared decently in the early season, earning a few points (but not enough to “upgrade”) and a reputation as the girl who is able and willing to pull an entire race but who can’t hang with the sprinters when it comes down to that kind of finish.
Then, you know, there’s the local guys who really don’t like racing with me every week, and I know it, but I race with them anyway because it’s great training. And then there was the week of four races, three of which were heavy on the climbing and the final one, a running race, for which I hadn’t trained— which made me worn down and sick enough that I actually worried I was developing chronic fatigue. And then the fires which covered Reno and the Carson Valley in a thick layer of smoke for a month, and I finally just found something else to do other than ride the bike since my body, my community and even the elements seemed to be plotting against me.
So, I didn’t exactly feel prepared for this. Like, I’m so scared at the start of the stage that the bathroom thing happens, and I gain a few watts per kilo before I even start the climb up Austin Summit— which, I have to say, is a hell of a way to warm up after sitting in a support vehicle taking artistic pictures with my phone, herding cattle and drinking water all day.
It’s still light out when I start—maybe a half hour before sunset— and the temperature is perfect. I don’t really have anyone to chase but how fast I think I was last year, and so the initial climb up Austin Summit and the second climb up Bob Scott Summit is a litany of self-abuse on how fat and slow I’ve gotten, now that I’m a “retired” old lady. But after the first two climbs, I realize I’m not doing myself any good— the wind is beating me up enough by itself, it doesn’t need my help to make the ride more difficult. So, I settle in a pace and refuse to look at my power meter, but instead I absorb the absolute beauty and silence of this place.
And it is: beautiful.
This, I think, is where the magic of this race began, and why I’m writing this blog. For an entire season, I had been focusing on the end of things: the finish line, my age, the fact that I am not a certain kind of athlete and never will be. However, as the desert painted itself under sunset’s palette, I started to wonder if this isn’t some sort of beginning—like a renaissance— in my life. When I can race the kinds of races I want to, and to do them for myself and not anyone else. When I can define a standard of beauty that is not a magazine cover or pinterest post of some generic one-size-fits-all, but that is an expression of who and what I am. When I can accept what the universe has given me: my strengths as well as my weaknesses. And then it occurs to me that beginnings and endings are really one and the same— they are distinct moments in time only recognizable after reflection and silence.
I remember watching the light slowly fade and the landscape around me was only detectable by the way it smelled like sage. My team told me I passed a handful of riders—this, however, I don’t remember. I remember seeing my team and support vehicle one last time before the climb into Eureka, a shining and flashing beacon on the shoulder of the road, and they asked if I needed anything. I usually hate that part of the stage (an uphill at the end of 70 miles? Really?!?) but this year, I accepted the landscape for what it was, and I waved them off to prep Tilio, our next rider.
I climbed the final ascent alone in the dark, not painlessly, but moving forward, pedal stroke after pedal stroke. The lights of Eureka turned the world light again, and the local bar, called "The Owl Club” flashed its brazen neon signs, lighting my way to the next time station. I stopped before my team: I couldn’t ask, but I wanted to know: how did I do?
But, there isn’t time for that in a race like this. My bike was racked as soon as I arrived and I, still sweaty and breathless, stuffed into the backseat, given a burrito and told to get some rest. I didn’t even get a chance to pee.
Just like that: we were back on the road, back toward Reno, back to where the race began.
9:07 pm- Eureka.
I don’t remember much from this stage. I remember how hard it was to change out of my cycling kit and into dry, warm clothes in the seat of a moving vehicle in the dark. I tried to drink water and eat, but my stomach was too excited from the ride for much of that. I ended up laying down across the bench seat, closing my eyes and trying to sleep. Monica and our Crew Chief, Linda, claim that I was successful and that I was murmuring nonsense as I slept. This is probably true.
I do remember snippets, though, of Tilio’s 70-mile stage back to Austin. I remember we stopped, and there was muffled conversation. At some point, I woke up to hear that there wasn’t enough water or supplies up front near the driver and passenger seats (everything was stored in the back of the suburban) and that everyone, like me, had to pee. Rich, because he had Stage 6 (the long, night leg) was still soundly asleep in the bench seat behind me.
Tilio rode steadily in the night. The flashing lights on his frame cast programmed lighted patterns across his bike, like a jellyfish. It was mesmerizing to watch, and made the typically-painful direct follow less painful. After the race, he will tell us all that he liked the experience of riding in the dark. The lack of data (not being able to see his bike computer) and the lack of reference points made it a surreal experience. “With the light— it looked like I was riding uphill the entire time,” he said. “And I was going over twenty miles an hour uphill, so I played this game with myself that I was totally badass!”
The final climb— which is actually two climbs (up Bob Scott Summit and then up Austin Summit) can seem ridiculously long in the dark. It is also mentally challenging for a rider: Bob Scott is a long enough climb that a person can’t help but feel some sense of accomplishment when the climbing stops. You think you’ve reached the top and that the stage is nearly over. However, as the downhill turns upward and the pedal strokes don’t come so easily anymore, you realize “this isn’t over yet.”
I felt doubly bad for Tilio who, two-thirds of the way up Bob Scott Summit, stopped and admitted that he could use a pit stop. He decided to power through, though, which made the “false summit” (I imagine) equally demoralizing. However, he completed the ride—even missing a doe, and keeping the rubber-side-up on his final descent into Austin where Rich would take over for the 116-mile stage to Fallon.
1:42 am- Austin.
Our team’s exchange in Austin was not fast. Everyone had to pee, and Rich wasn’t exactly excited about getting out on the bike at 2:00 in the morning. However, it wasn’t as cold as it has been in recent years: I didn’t have my puffy jacket with me, but I really didn’t need it. I was tired, though—my “sleeping sickness” was starting to kick in.
I wandered aimlessly with a bag of garbage in my hand before I found the well-marked garbage can under the bright fluorescent lights of the gas station to which it belonged that was, you know, right next to our support vehicle. I was grateful for the light-up bra I had on over my reflective vest, however: it made the Porta-Potty less scary in the dark with its flashing pink, green and blue hues.
When I got back to the suburban, I realized I was delegated to the co-pilot’s seat next to crew chief Linda who would not let any of us drive for THE ENTIRE 508 MILES. (FYI: LINDA IS AMAZING.) I knew we were in trouble though; even on the descent out of Austin, I was already falling asleep.
There are many things I can do in life: write grant proposals, raise chickens, ride my bike and make the most amazing roasted corn salsa; I can’t, however, stay up all night no matter what is going on. I have no idea why— so whatever aspirations I’ve had of raving or whatever in the middle of the night are totally out of the window. I honestly don’t even think drugs could help me. I’m wired like a chicken (which is funny, because I’m totally a chicken lady! But that’s another blog post.)
Luckily (or unluckily) Rich got a flat on the downhill, and we pulled over to support him. I woke up and jumped out of the car, holding a mag light and the light on my cell phone above the wheel so that he could work. “Awake,” I told myself, “awake, awake, awake.”
It didn’t work, though. Rich started riding through the Reese River Valley and I basically fell asleep right away. However, (and to my credit) I had already prepped his Ensure bottles and water, so I was ready to hand whatever he needed out the window. My performance as a crew member is best described by crew chief, Linda: “I have never seen anyone wake up, roll a window down, and hand off seamlessly. That was amazing in and of itself. [You] never missed a beat. I should have videoed that—crewing while sleeping!”
Rich, though, faced his challenges. Dodging bunnies, he also battled fatigue and nearly rode himself off the road, only to shake himself awake in time before hitting gravel. When the sun began to rise, Monica, Tilio and I started to stir and witnessed a cloud-covered sky that kept the temperatures well above the 19-degrees they were last year at this point in the race. The Dixie Valley slowly grew brighter and brighter, and as Rich climbed Sand Pass, we witnessed a beautiful sunrise.
Arguably, though, the toughest part of Stage 6 isn’t the climb up Carroll Summit, but instead what waited for Rich: the wide expanse after Sand Pass. Imagine this: you’ve already ridden four or five or even six hours. Then you get to the top of this climb and you can’t even see ALL THE MILES you still have to complete in order to reach the next exchange point. The road, from the vantage of Sand Pass, is a long and steady straight line of blacktop that vanishes into the horizon point.
It isn’t all that easy for teams or crews, either. Official rules dictate that direct follow doesn’t end until 7:00 am. Rich didn’t stop for his entire ride, so we were all crossing our legs waiting for the final minutes to change the hour.
Then, let’s just say that the salt flats received an unexpected increase in the water table.
Rich later told us that the last miles of this stage were demoralizing; nothing in this vast landscape seemed to change. Once we left Rich at the Fallon City Limits, we charged ahead to the exchange station where bathrooms with plumbing and a cute little coffeehouse offered us comforts like lattes and cinnamon rolls—all that the desert simply cannot.
8:14 am- Fallon
Monica and Rich make the exchange while Tilio and I are walking back from the coffeehouse across the street. I half-think I should spring across main street and take a picture but then the sane part of me tells me I’ll get run over by a semi, and that that would not be great for our team result. So, I keep walking with all the coffee drinks, and I’m sad I missed it, but it’s get real here: I’m worn out and dirty and tired, and I just tried to “clean up” in a public restroom in a coffeehouse which is only mildly better than the baby-wipe shower that happened sometime last night in my sleep-sickness delirium.
And, I’m racing in about an hour— and at this point, I’m not hungry at all. Crew Chief Linda asks me when I’m going to eat my pre-race sandwich (a ritual of mine) and I reply I won’t (mostly because I don’t know where the ingredients are anymore) and then Rich begrudgingly gives me a piece of KFC that is literally the smallest piece of chicken known to man (it’s the size of a quarter. Literally). after I ask him for one, and I’m like “OK, fine, I won’t eat before this stage,” and he falls asleep because he just rode 116 miles in the middle of the night.
I think about having to argue with a homeless man for the KFC bucket of chicken the day before, and I wonder why Rich won’t give me more chicken. And then I realize that I’m half-crazy from the miles and this life of constant motion. I say hardly anything to anyone as the miles draw closer and the headwind picks up, and I realize I’m going to have a difficult final stage of this race.
9:44 am- Silver Springs.
It’s not a breeze. This is WIND.
WIND in my face, wind that Monica says “sucks” as I stuff the GPS transmitter into my back pocket. I don’t even know how to explain the thoughts in my head: “why can’t I ever have a tailwind?” was probably one of them as I set off the wide shoulder of highway 50. But, I settled in and became optimistic: maybe my short (petite) stature would give me an advantage in this stage of the race? (There is less of me to blow against?)
I pass the first female solo female finisher (Mighty Mouse) at the roundabout and feel simultaneously inspired (holy crap: that girl has ridden nearly 500 miles already and is still standing) and grateful (the wind, for me, is more of an annoyance than an obstacle. If I had ridden 500 miles and encountered this headwind, I would be seriously pissed.)
I continue into the headwind, averaging 3.8-4.1 watts per kilo put movingly only 12-13 mph. When I make the turn to Six-Mile Canyon, I hope the wind will die down. But, in true Nevada fashion, it doesn’t. The headwind follows me to the climb and my heart starts to feel like it will explode. A part of me panics: Rich isn’t out cheering for me, and I start to think any of our riders would be faster than me right now.
When Rich emerges from the vehicle, I try to get him to make me stop. He doesn’t take the bait (he knows me too well) and I just keep climbing. I’m so slow, though. It’s painful the way I just have nothing left—I’m not tired, I’m just breathless and I think of how antelope have a wider windpipe that allows them to supply oxygen to their blood and I wish I was an antelope on a bike.
Jeni Root, who donated our support vehicle, runs next to me up the steeps before the final turn in V-City.
The descent off Geiger is terrifying. I mean, really. My bike jumps across the road and I move my hands from the aerobars to the drops to keep myself upright. My internal dialogue tells me that Rich will be upset I’m not aero for this, but I am so scared from the strong gusts of wind that nearly push me into oncoming traffic, that I almost start crying.
I try to make up time on the flats through Veteran’s Parkway (using the tailwind I finally get) but I constantly worry that I cost my team the record from my not-so-great performance up Six-Mile and the slow descent. But, at a certain point you’ve got to take responsibility for yourself and what you’ve done (or not done)— and you have to own it and deal with it in the present moment with what resources you have inside yourself.
I’ve promised myself that I will finish the races I start; that I am dedicated to whatever guts I have, I lay down in the race. I may not be the best, I’m going to be the best version of me—the one who gets to the finish line, no matter what.
I ride my best to the finish line, and I let myself smile when I can see it. I’m so grateful for my team, and all I can do is smile and pedal, and hope it’s enough. That, though is the crux: that is what athletes do.
We finish our Silver State 508 journey at 12:33 pm, PST, which means we completed the 508 miles in 29 hours and 33 minutes. We capture a course record by over an hour and my stomach can untie itself.
Even though the race has ended, there is something about those miles, that landscape…as soon as I cross the line we start talking about next year.
I don't really even remember what sound started the race. It was probably a whistle. I know for a fact it wasn't a shotgun start, not in some sweet little suburb of San Jose. The race started on a hill, and for the Pro/1/2/3 women, it started just about when the red sign with the white writing announced: "Race Start Here."Read More
As much fun as racing is, it's only one small part of what I love about cycling. A much larger part has to do with the unique perspective the seat of a bicycle gives its rider-- IMO, there's no better way to experience a new place than to ride a bike through it.Read More
One day this week as I was driving home and the mountains turned a light rosy color from the setting sun, it occured to me that some moments in our lives matter more than others. Like, how many times have you put the dishes in the dishwasher or shoveled out cat turds from the litterbox? I'm not sure I can single out a remarkable moment from either of those examples.Read More
I was involved in a car accident last night on my commute home from work. The 9-11 operator and both insurance agents I speak to will ask me about the weather at the precise moment when my car was struck by behind, and everything about how I understand the world—and my place in it—would change.Read More
Even though the days continue to get shorter, and whenever I'm outside, it's dark, I am going through a regeneration of mind, body and spirit.Read More
I've been thinking about the nature of nonfiction a lot lately, mainly because I have several writing projects on my plate, but also because I spent the better part of my teens abrandonnd twenties studying-- and writing-- in that particular genre. So, in a way, it's become my modus operandi for how I organize my thoughts, even without realizing it. I’ve also been thinking a lot about cycling and how that fits into my writing life (most times, it doesn’t.) Races like the 508, though, which require so much explaining and storytelling to give anyone a sense of its breadth— allow the two worlds to collide.
For me, writing nonfiction is a lot like taking a photograph: you have to frame your subject while taking into consideration what exists in the natural world around it. It's an act of selection--of focus. If you take a picture of the road, you might miss the mountain range to the right, or the clouds directly above you. If you photograph the tree, you miss the river, (etc.) Events, therefore, are also snapshots of the end of a particular journey— of the training it took to compete, yes. But, also of whatever other challenges circle through my ligaments and mind, and what little I’m left with is what I tend to write.
These days, photographs are not necessarily true; they render something that looks true enough. This is not that kind of photograph. This race report takes neither the high or the low road— instead, it focuses on the truest moments across 508 miles shared by six unlikely athletes brought together by a common purpose: to break a few barriers and to set a record for the “toughest 48 hours in sport.”
Start & Stage 1.
It's 6:45 am on Friday, September 15th. The sunrise has a light pinkish hue to it; the air bites at the skin with its teeth. There are a handful of cyclists gathered in front of the Hilton Garden Inn, a hotel in Reno's South Meadows. For the "toughest 48-hours in sport" you'd think there would be more fanfare: more spectators, more families… just more. But, ultra-endurance sports are not social: they are individual struggles, spread out across roads and mountains. The lucky thing— for a team, anyway— is that you get to share these private moments with a handful of other people.
Our team’s first rider, Rhonda Y., is a true Reno local and resident and also an accomplished cyclist. A Cat 2 racer, she earned her USAC status through years of hard work, racing, training and talent. In 2011, she was struck by Hummer, and injured so badly that she had roads and screws (a level 5 fusion) placed in her back. Yet, she returned to racing and won several USAC Crit races, working her way to her current Cat 2 status. Two years ago, she married and had a little boy, Till, who is 1 1/2 years old.
As she stood at the start line, another racer told her: "I'm a very fast climber.”
When the race began, she sat back and watched the two "leaders" (including the “very fast climber”) struggle up Geiger Grade. Rhonda picked her moment, and attacked. "I got to Geiger Summit alone. I looked back and there was no one there," she said.
Into Virginia City and down Six Mile Canyon, other riders didn't stop at the stop signs despite race rules which dictate otherwise. She watched other riders break the rules and accelerate down the narrow road. Yet, Rhonda would emerge as the third rider to meet NV Hwy 50. Strong headwinds and construction made for an interesting first exchange point as teammates Monica and Katie organized the mini-bus (the shaggin’ wagon, as my partner, Rich— who was competing on another team— called it.) I sat up front with our driver, Linda, an ultra-endurance athlete recovering from her own traffic accident, trying to settle into the cadence of the race.
Already, we had a rivalry, and it wasn’t with the other Reno team like I had expected. Each and every woman in that mini bus had their sights set no on the only team to wear skin suits for the first two legs of the race. The one with the fast climber. As our second rider embarked on the 31.5 mile stage to Fallon, I knew this year was different from the previous three I had raced. This race was gut-deep.
Flat and Fast Stage 2.
The Silver State 508 is a non-stop 508-mile time trial race that has five different racing categories: solo- randonneur, solo, 2-person relay and 4-person relay. Because people come in two flavors (male and female) and bikes come in five (standard, recumbent, classic, fixed gear and tandem) the permutation of race categories is more than I want to calculate (hey, I became a writer for a reason.)
Never before in the history of the Silver State 508 has a four-woman team even toed the line. There were four-woman teams in the Furnace Creek 508, but they never cracked the top-ten. I never imagined that, in gathering local female racers, that we would be competitive with male teams. I only wanted us to finish, to have a good time and to get to know each other better.
But, maybe that reveals some deeper bias about what men and women are capable of. Or, of what we are willing to accept from a person depending on their gender, their socio-economic status, the color of their skin or the cost of the bike upon which they log their miles.
Monica G., our second rider, is probably the woman who articulates this the best. Tall, athletic and the most determined (tenacious) person I know, she’s also very wise. In the weeks prior to the race, I internet-stalked all my teammates, cobbling together a sponsor letter to convince some local business to loan us a vehicle for the race. I found a quote she’d offered to an athletic trainer who had helped her prepare for Leadville last year. She wrote: “Life is full of labels and definitions. It’s not number; a weight, finish time, salary, age, heart rate, speed, watts or even tire size. It’s not a title or degree. It’s not a membership to a country club. It’s not finishing one race, it’s finishing each day with grace and humility. It’s the opportunity to show up at the start line.”
Monica showed up for this stage. She rode so strong that our crew, Linda, remarked: “I hate to say it, but she rides like a guy. And if anyone ever says that to me, I’m going to think of Monica, and I’m going to take it as a compliment. Man, she’s strong.”
We got to the exchange point well ahead of our companion Great Basin (Reno) team. The skin-suit team was still in front of us, though. Our third rider, Katie, got on her Q-Roo TT bike with a fire in her eyes that she would do the best she could for the next 106 miles.
Long, cold and windy. Stage 3.
The Silver State 508 is a long enough race that you have to think about logistics and details. And, not to throw myself under our mini-bus—which I somehow managed to secure by coordinating with Rich who owns Great Basin Bicycles and Darrell Plumber of Sierra Nevada Properties— I will freely admit that “logistics and details” are not really my thing. As a literary artist, I am a more conceptual and abstract thinker: put me in charge of the Facebook and twitter feed and watch me literally blow it up. Things like a vehicle, coolers for food and water and ice, etc. That’s definitely not my thing. (We have a saying in my household: I can fix it if it’s a manuscript. If not, you’re on your own.)
So, if it were up to me, we might subsist on dry turkey sandwiches, which is what I did, because somehow all the food I packed disappeared and I couldn’t locate any of it throughout the duration of the race. (I would later discover it ended up on the Great Basin Ichthyosaur Van— our companion team. Oh well. ) Luckily, my teammates were all a lot more organized than I was. Katie, for instance, stocked the van with three coolers, one of which held ice water that we didn’t go through quite as quickly as we feared (it was colder this year than in the past) but that proved invaluable.
Katie, with her Q-Roo TT bike, rode the flats and downhills at mach one speed, pulling us across the Nevada’s vast Great Basin on hwy. 50. Past the dunes of Sand Mountain, the bombing range of Dixie Valley and Middlegate— a bar/motel/semi-landmark along the route. Here is where we’d pull the bus off the road to stop and wait for our rider to pass.
The run-down, in stage 3, was that we were well behind the four-man fast francophone team, Coconut Crab as well as the two-person mixed Hutton’s Vireo and, only recently, the other Reno/Great Basin Bicycles sponsored team, Great Basin Ichthyosaur. Their rider, Fritz, had passed Katie on Sand Pass, just after Sand Mountain. So, we were fourth or fifth (not including any solo riders)— and had something like twenty minutes before we expected Katie to ride by the van again. We all stood around, talking about Reno’s decision to close the strip clubs downtown and move them elsewhere. It was an odd conversation, admittedly, but I was wearing a tutu, we were driving in a mini-bus and there was something like 400 miles ahead of us. Who was I to judge what was strange?
Linda, one of our crew, got out of the driver’s seat and located her yoga mat to do a series of therapeutic stretches and strengthening exercises. Seven weeks before, she was struck by an SUV in a four-way stop intersection in Carson City when the woman behind the wheel decided to put the pedal to the metal from a dead stop for no apparent reason. Linda’s pelvis was broken in multiple locations, and I was shocked when she told me she still wanted to crew for the team.
Carroll Summit is probably one of the most beautiful spots in Eastern Nevada. It’s technically not on “the loneliest highway” but a side road of that— on NV highway 722, a sharp right turn just after our semi-famous “shoe tree.” I had told Katie about the climb weeks before the race when she’d enthusiastically signed up for this epic adventure without asking me about it much (I worried about her sanity a little bit. :-) Actually, she saved our butts, and I’m glad she joined up with us.) Katie, who has competed in countless triathlons (mostly the long kind) had more aerobic base than all of us put together. But, TT bikes are built to do one thing (and they do it well): go fast on the flats and downhills.
About a week before the race, I borrowed a friend’s TT bike and rode it around just to see what it felt like. It was like sitting on a tank— granted, it took some effort to get that thing going, but once I was rolling, I was unstoppable. Hills, though— yeesh— I’m typically a fairly decent climber, and I struggled on terrain I would, on my road bike, call “a hill.”
When we started the Carroll Summit climb, I changed out of my sweatpants and into shorts. Then, after stepping outside the mini-bus, I promptly put my pants back on again. Sharp rock formations frame the initial entrance to the canyon and an old farmstead called Eastgate, welcomes you to this new, strange world.
A fire swept over Carroll Summit last year, so the remains of juniper trees lend an eerie air to the otherwise stunning climb. Katie pushed through that climb like nobody’s business, but I can’t imagine what that was like on a TT bike. If determination were elements on the periodic table, Katie’s would be uranium.
Once the climb was over, she would reach over 50 mph on the downhill and pull us neck-and-neck with Reno’s third team: Blerch (a four-man team.) Great Basin Ichthyosaur had pulled 18 minutes ahead; Hutton Vireo 30 minutes and Coconut Crab, probably around an hour.
The last part of the stage is cruel: a sharp uphill and up-wind climb into Austin. I rolled around at the gas station on the hill to warm up. The rider on the Blerch team took a selfie with me at the exchange point. Then, as Katie came up the hill, I cheered her on while silently telling myself that it was time to saddle up and go into puke-mode for as long as I could stand it.
Stage 4: Almost getting run over, Austin to Eureka.
Up Austin Summit, I pass the other Reno team immediately. My legs are already filled with lactic acid, and I’m breathing so much cold air that it feels like I’m rubbing cheese graters up and down my throat. I can’t let my team down, and I know this stage well: as long as I don’t cross my own red line, I can make it on water and a few energy chews. It’s about 6:30 in the evening, the sun is low and the desert, beautiful. The low light captures the earth tone hues and distant, purple mountains.
I don’t expect to see my team vehicle for a while. And, that’s fine with me. I settle into a pace, down in my aerobars. Music— piano— plays in one ear while I listen to the endless wind— the sound of distance—around me.
Eventually, I do see the orange mini-bus. They offer me water. They offer me other things, but I don’t stop, can’t stop—it’s only 70 miles. I start in on the chews at thirty miles in. Grape flavored, I wonder why I didn’t check the package before I stuffed it into my pocket. But, as I’ve already said, I’m not really a details person, so whatever. Chews are chews.
The sun sets, and the sky turns rosy-violet-blue. My team tells me to turn my lights on. I do, stopping (only so briefly)— I’ve passed a lot of riders I don’t recognize, but not GB Ichthyosaur, and not the two-person mixed team from So. Cal. I keep pushing harder— or so I imagine— in this place of endless headwind and panoptic horizons that fade with the arrival of evening stars.
I move through every single emotion a person can as my legs turn around the crank of the bike. I’m great, I suck, I can ride forever, I need to stop, I’m powerful, I’m weak… the litany of narratives is endless and vast like the darkness and soon I can only see a single lighted spot on the road in front of me.
Red blinking lights in the distance ahead tell me I’m catching riders, and I’m excited and I ride harder. Then, a white stalker-van pulls up next to me, and I turn to look and this man yells at me with big, gesturing arms. My heart is in my throat, and when I realize that it’s my boyfriend, Rich, and that he’s in his team van (GB Ichthyosaur) I’ve crashed my bike, bruised my arm, stomach and leg and I’m panting on the dark pavement.
He tells me my tail-light had failed and that some other motorist had almost killed me. He puts several lights on my bike, and pushes me back on the road. I’m less impacted by the news that I almost died than I am knowing their rider is close.
I catch her in the undulating terrain of 20-miles-to-go and call out a friendly greeting— the darkness is lonely. Up and down— I seek that other team, pushing as hard as I can. I tell my team to go to the exchange point even though I’m low on water. The final climb before Eureka, the horizon turns a light shade of lavender in the dark black of night. I pass a man on the climb to the gas station in town, and spot deer in between the old, brick buildings. I point, but the lights from the exchange points are so bright, they almost blind me.
I settle into the mini-bus. I remember we backed over a curb. I remember we followed Rhonda (who would ride the 70-mile stage 5) out of town. My body ached after that stage. I tried so hard, but I didn’t catch them all. I lay down onto a seat and tried to stop shivering.
Stage 5: Cold night and athlete-dreams, Eureka to Austin.
As Rhonda set out on our return ride home, I scrambled to peel off the cold, wet layers of cycling clothes and settle into a seat to sleep, since I’d be the one to help our crew through the “deep” part of the night for the sixth stage of the race. A rider from another team drafted our mini-bus as we turned out of Eureka and back onto the lonely highway. I couldn’t get my teeth to stop chattering.
I felt bad for telling Rhonda (before the race) that it would not be a cold leg to ride. To my own credit, it wasn’t that cold the year I rode it— back in 2015, when I had competed on a two-person mixed team with Brandon Tinianov team Sanguine Octopus (we captured the course record that year following the race results that include stopping at every stop sign and riding each and every leg to which we were assigned without changing out riders—which, for this race, constitutes cheating.)
This year, it wasn’t just cold. It was— just about, literally— freezing. I couldn’t warm up in the bus; I couldn’t imagine what that felt like in the dark night at 20+ mph. Linda drove the mini-bus, directly following Rhonda (per the race rules).
The other rider— a man on a four-person team— surged in front of Rhonda and the bus, only to drop back, and have us overcome her. This happened about three times before he shook his head and silently accepted that “the girl team” would move ahead of him.
I kept trying to sleep. I listened to my teammate, Katie— who is a seasoned triathlete— talk to Linda about her ultra-triathlon experiences. As they talked about the swim-bike-run, my dreams turned triathlon: I swam through deserts. I biked across a pool. It was really, really weird.
Then, at some point, I heard my name and bolted awake. Rhonda’s headlight had failed. Without thinking, I ran to the bike rack on the back of the bus where the rest of our bikes rested. I loosened the headlamp on my bike and ran to Rhonda, attempting to fasten it to her handlebars. Immediately, my fingers were almost too cold to move, and it took me three or four attempts to get the light secured on her bike.
I’m still upset with myself that I didn’t capture any pictures of Rhonda riding this leg. I was so tired and cold, and I knew that my shift of co-piloting would start in Austin. Rhonda rode it brilliantly— she was second fastest time overall on that leg of the race out of 46 teams. She was barely behind the four-man French team Coconut Crab, and decimated everyone else in the race.
I remember, back in 2015, climbing the last climb, Austin Summit. It’s brutal: it is dark, you can’t see where you are going or how far you have come. The year I did it, I glanced into the night sky and happened to see a shooting star. I wished that the climb would end. Then, out of the darkness, the green highway sign announcing Austin materialized. I held my arms in the air.
I was awake for Rhonda’s final climb. I watched as she passed other riders. I watched as she pushed hard up that final ascent, not being able to see it. And then, as the sign came into view, she lifted a single fist-punch into the air: the sign of victory. It was one of the most inspiring moments of the race.
Stage 6: Deep freeze, dark morning and mysteries.
We arrived in Austin at 1:32 am. It was dark and Pluto-cold; I’m honestly surprised there was no trace of ice on the roads. My teammate, Monica (who would ride the 112 mile stage from Austin to Fallon) was, due to her extensive experience as an athlete, ready to ride. When we arrived in Austin earlier (when I began Leg 4), she and her boyfriend left the orange bus, and rented a room in Austin. They had a warm meal, showered and slept while Rhonda and I rode to Eureka and back again.
There was nothing in the race rules which stated all riders must remain in their vehicle, or that they cannot rent rooms in the tiny towns we would pass through. In fact, we were encouraged to support these small economies as much as we could. So, Monica did her part and ate at one of Austin’s two restaurants and stayed in one of its three motels.
When we arrived in Austin, I grabbed Rhonda’s bike, put it on the bike rack and ushered her into the bus. I checked with Monica to see that she was ready. Her boyfriend, Matt, took over the job of driving as crew while Linda (still recovering from a major injury) would sleep and shower in their hotel room and drive his car to Fallon where we would meet, switch drivers, and continue to the finish line.
Matt, a high school government teacher in Reno, took the wheel. A true adventurer and athlete, I did my best to support our team even though late-night anything is really not my strong suit. We made sure Monica turned left onto highway 722 (a turn other riders missed); we made sure she had water and food.
Yet, he said that more than a few times, I would be talking to him and mid-sentence, would fall completely asleep. (Honestly, I tried.)
Every time I heard my name, I jumped to action: I filled a water bottle, I fixed a headlight, I gave or removed gloves.
Monica flew. The team in front of us— a two-mixed team— had a fifteen minute lead on us leaving the Austin time station. I watched the online tracking on my phone and the blinking red lights in front of us simultaneously: she was gaining on them, and gaining fast.
I know Monica saw the blinking tail lights: Matt said that she would do everything to catch them. She is tenacious like that. We reached the bottom of Carroll Summit and gave her a new warm layer (that she could sweat in) new water (hers had frozen due to riding in 19-degree temps and a handful of encouraging words. The red flashing lights became more brilliant as we approached.
And then, the lights vanished.
I can’t say what happened. Wake and slumber flatlined, and even after reviewing race data, I cannot tell the true story. Yet, after a month of reflection, I have this unframed thought: that for all the hours and all the discomfort, athletes are left only one thing to celebrate— integrity. At our best, we represent this particular strength of spirit through the extremes we push the body by completing feats most people would rather not even try. We are integrity, embodied.
Yet, without integrity— when the rules aren’t followed, and when excellence is arrived at by cheating, there is nothing to frame: an athlete is just another person who would rather not complete a difficult race.
I can say that Monica rode 112 miles (fast!) for that stage of the race. I watched her do it. I was awake for every stop and, when Matt had a question, he would wake me up to ask.
Dawn across the alkali flats, dawn over Sand Mountain: Monica rode steady and strong. When we stopped at a gas station at the outskirts of town, we heard the Fallon Naval Base play the Star Spangled Banner. Delirious from lack of sleep, we stumbled out of the bus, placed our right hands over our heart, and stared up at the American flag flying over the gas station. The gas station owner—and his wife— joined us.
Stage 7: Time Trial: It’s getting real.
Monica and Katie made the exchange while I was putting my cycling clothes on in the orange bus. I had made another dry sandwich of turkey and white bread (because that was all I had to eat) and another bottle of water. Monica asked if we wanted coffee drinks while Rhonda and Katie found a local cafe in Fallon for breakfast and real coffee.
My stomach was in knots: I tried to do my best with what I had. Katie leaves the exchange point on the Q-Roo TT bike, flying fast down the flat terrain. We gather Monica in the bus and continue to the turn. Everyone but Katie and I are eating non-bike food and relaxed. My nerves are sharp and when Rhonda asks me what I know about other riders in the ride (and what to do when they don’t follow the rules) I don’t have an answer for her.) There are rules and relationships: you should always follow the race rules. I don't have an answer for her about the other half of it, relationships, the nebulous part.
As the morning warms, I worry that I’ve let everyone down. Katie rides so strong; she is steady and strong due to her large-volume training and grit. When we pull into Silver Springs— a casino parking lot as the exchange point— I go into the bathroom one last time before my ride.
In the casino bathroom, I look at myself in the mirror. My face looks completely horrible. I’m wrinkled, tired and old. While Katie kicks ass on her final stage of the race, I take boogers out of my eyes and ears, and put the mass of my hair into a ponytail.
As I leave the cigarette-scented environment in the casino, guilt seeps from my blood into every part of my body.
Stage 8: Making up (stolen) time
When Katie and I make the exchange, there is not another team around us. It’s just desert and distance. Former Race Director and always-race-guru/photographer, explorer/instigator Chris Kostman filmed me riding for a time in his car along highway 50, even taking his blue Saturn off onto the dirt shoulder of the road. Kostman, a friend and supporter of my writing, kindly offered his thoughts on our bumblebee team: “It was a true pleasure to have our first four women team on the Silver State 508 course!” No pressure, right?
No matter what I tried to tell myself, my muscles— and body— were not 100% due to how hard I’d pushed in the fourth stage and probably my lack of sleep since then. I felt mechanical— and half-alive— as I turned my pedals around the crank. I worry someone might catch me, but there is nothing in the world that tells me that there is another person around me.
At some point, a truck carrying bottled water had a wreck and I had to negotiate broken plastic bottles across the highway. Then, when I turned onto the road leading to the climb up Six Mile Canyon, I encountered an older man on a bike. He asked me if I did the Alta Alpina races to which I answered that I had.
My team, who drove up shortly after this exchange, were alarmed by this early Saturday morning rider who, they said: “was all over the place.” Afraid he was going to weave into me and force a crash, they told him to back off, which he eventually did, as I attempted to hold a steady pace and cadence up the pitchy and sometimes-steep climb of Six Mile Canyon.
I’m not going to lie— I felt like I was riding in slow motion, and I figured that I had no shot at catching anybody. I felt bad for my team— whom I’d dragged out into the desert for a night of no-sleep, below freezing temps, mediocre food, and the opportunity to water a lot of bushes along the way. I knew they deserved more out of me, and I was sad that, in the terrain where Rich says I shine, I was barely making it.
I didn’t have any idea where George was, and I told myself to just ride my ride. So, I listened to the piano chords in my right ear and fell into the rhythm of the road, pushing the steeper sections and easing up on the flats to give myself a slight recovery. I would only find out later, after the race had ended, that I was catching the war-torn rider ahead who went to considerable extremes to keep me from catching him.
Down Geiger Grade, I held onto my aerobars, not touching the brakes once. Unfortunately, I caught just about every light red on the way back. And, wanting to adhere to race rules, I stopped for each of them. I came into the finish line hot, though, and I think there was genuine concern that I would crash out on that final turn. But, I owe whatever I know of the bike to Rich Staley who’s taught me how to ride hard, turn on a dime go back to the barn soaking wet with sweat, dirt and tears— and to make sure that everyone else on the course suffered more than I did. I would ride the fastest final leg, out pacing the next rider by about ten minutes. I nearly did catch that guy in front of me. His twenty minute lead dwindled to eight minutes by the time I crossed the line.
A part of me wonders if I would have caught him had my luck been better, RE: the traffic lights. Rules are rules, however, and everyone who competes in this race is a warrior in one way or another.
Our team would come in third overall— impressive for the Silver State’s first all-female team comprised of my friends… other women who embody what this sport is all about: bravery, honor, integrity and grit.
Kostman, when we crossed the line, would say: “Team Great Basin Bumblebee not only burned up the course, but they did it with style and with great smiles, strength and poise, no matter the conditions.”
Thirty minutes later, the other Great Basin Team, Ichthyosaur, would cross the finish line, too. “It’s also exciting to have so many locals embracing the race, and I’m sure these talented, energetic ladies will inspire others,” Kostman said.
After taking each team’s finishing photo, we gathered for a group hug that included both Great Basin teams and Chris Kostman. It was truly an incredible moment for all of us.
Officially, we would finish 3rd of all teams that competed in the Silver State 508 this year. We would also capture the course record for an all-woman four-person team. No other four-woman team competed in the race this year; and only a handful have ever completed this race.
For races like the Silver State 508, you don’t come away with much— a few saddle sores, dirty cycling clothes and a jersey. Added all together, it’s probably a net loss of resources, but what you gain from the experience— and the challenge— is priceless. For me, I found something unexpected in the desert this year. As our team packed up our individual items, cleaning out the orange bus and saying our goodbyes, I knew I was going to miss these remarkable women who shared the toughest 48 hours of sport with me.
For all the animosity competition can bring, this race reinforced the incredible capacity of the human spirit to reach for— and exceed— its own greatness. Granted, I wasn’t ready to start talking about our plans for next year (I needed a shower first); but events like the Silver State 508 bring out the best— and worst—in each of us. Not giving up, pushing through discomfort and supporting our riders and other teams— these are the memories that surface when I think back to this race.
That, and the incredible way we kicked nearly everybody’s ass.
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